Laut

Kita terlalu sibuk mengukur dalamnya laut di hati masing-masing.
saat berenang dalam keasingan arusnya, kita suka lupa sayang
bahwa laut diantara hati kita memiliki gelombang luka yang sulit kita jinakkan, bahkan dengan cinta

laut cukup terlalu asin untuk membuat goresan luka itu makin perih dan menganga bukan?. ini cukup bagi kita untuk berenang lebih kencang mencari tepian.

Love sonnets

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. 
I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you.

I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, 
In secret, between the shadow and the soul.

Sepasang kekasih yang pertama bercinta di luar angkasa

Direntang waktu yang berjejal dan memburai, kau berikan,
sepasang tanganmu terbuka dan membiru, enggan
Di gigir yang curam dan dunia yang tertinggal dan membeku
Sungguh, peta melesap dan udara yang terbakar jauh

Kita adalah sepasang kekasih yang pertama bercinta di luar angkasa
seperti takkan pernah pulang (yang menghilang)
Kau membias di udara dan terhempaskan cahaya
Seperti takkan pernah pulang, ketuk langkahmu menarilah di jauh permukaan Jalan pulang yang menghilang, tertulis dan menghilang, karena kita, sebab kita, telah bercinta di luar angkasa  see less

“ Bagaimana cara bertemu kamu? Harus berjalan atau berlari? Aku takut kamu terlewat dan aku mencarimu lagi "

Kadang aku merasa sudah dekat dengan kegilaan.
Kamu tahu apa yang paling menyakitkan saat perasaanmu begitu terikat kepada seseorang?

Bukan karena kamu tidak bisa menyatu dengan dia maka kamu akan merasa hidupmu begitu nestapa. Sesuatu yang lebih meluluhlantakkan hatimu adalah ketika seseorang -yang menyandera kemampuanmu untuk memiliki itu- tak melibatkan lagi namamu dalam hidupnya, tidak mengingat tanggal lahirmu, tidak mengucapkan apapun ketika datang tahun baru, bahkan tidak mengirimkan pesan basa-basi pada hari perayaan agamamu.

Kamu tidak terlibat sama sekali dalam hidupnya. 
Bahkan sekadar untuk diingat.

Kita tahu semua perjumpaan akan tiba pada perpisahan. 

Kita hanya tak tahu cara melepas

We Malo

Begini cara kerja sesuatu yang engkau sebut cinta:

Engkau bertemu seseorang, lalu perlahan-lahan merasa nyaman berada di sekitarnya.
Jika dia dekat, engkau akan merasa utuh, dan terbelah ketika dia menjauh.
Keindahan adalah ketika engkau merasa ia memerhatikanmu tanpa engkau tahu.
sewaktu kemenyerahan itu meringkusmu, mendengar namanya disebut pun menggigilkan akalmu.
Engkau mulai tersenyum dan menangis tanpa mau disebut gila.
Berhati-hati lah

"And all the stupid things I do
Have absolutely no reflection on
How I feel about you"

Kelak, hidup adalah ketika engkau menjalani hari-hari dengan optimisme. 
Melakukan hal-hal hebat. Menikmati kebersamaan dengan orang-orang baru. 
Tergelak dan gembira, membuat semua orang berpikir hidupmu telah sempurna.

Sementara, pada jeda yang engkau buat bisu, sewaktu langit meriah oleh benda-benda yang berpijar, ketika sebuah lagu menyeretmu ke masa lalu, wajahnya memenuhi setiap sudutmu. 

Bahkan, langit membentuk auranya. Udara bergerak mendesaukan suaranya. 

Bulan melengkungkan senyumnya. 

Bersiaplah... Engkau akan mulai merengek kepada Tuhan. 

Meminta sesuatu yang mungkin itu telah haram bagimu.

We malo..

Love will never leave you alone

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. 
You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. 
They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. 
There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. 
The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. 
In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. 

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. 
You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. 
You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. 
Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

The heart was made to be broken.

Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night's sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.